Deep Desire

When Lu Jingshen approached, Feng Si crossed his long legs and leaned against the wall without moving.

In the dim light, he couldn’t see Lu Jingshen’s expression, but he could feel the warmth of the hands roaming on his chest.

Fiery and sticky.

“What do you want to do?” Lu Jingshen’s breath stopped at the edge of his lips.

Feng Si lifted a hand and slowly unbuttoned the top button of Lu JIngshen’s shirt, teasingly brushing his Adam’s apple, sensing his breath becoming more rapid, and chuckled softly, “Can’t wait anymore?”

Occasionally, Lu Jingshen really disliked Feng Si’s casual attitude, always seeming to be in control, especially when he was so eager, his body craving for him, but Feng Si remained composed, as if intentionally teasing him.

Lu Jingshen didn’t answer and silently took off his tie, unbuttoned his suit jacket, casually throwing it to the ground, and unbuttoned Feng Si’s shirt one button after the other.

As Lu Jingshen unbuttoned Feng Si’s shirt, his hand moved to the zipper of his pants. Feng Si, who had been still, finally raised his hand, grabbed Lu Jingshen’s waist, and switched their positions, pressing him against the wall with one leg between his.

With a knee thrust upwards, Lu Jingshen let out a heavy breath, and Feng Si’s voice fell near his ear, “Okay, let me take charge.”

Right there at the door, even without turning on the lights, clothes fell one by one, and their naked bodies entwined together.

The sense of urgency was not only from Lu Jingshen.

“The stuff is in the room…” Lu Jingshen gasped, reminding Feng Si who was igniting his body with his hands.

“We won’t need it,” Feng Si’s voice was hoarse, “you get wet so easily, you don’t need lubricant at the moment.”

The darkness covered Lu Jingshen’s embarrassment. He was indeed very sensitive, from years ago until now, always easily aroused by Feng Si, overwhelming him..

“Don’t be embarrassed,” as if seeing through his thoughts, Feng Si’s voice was gentle, and his fingers gently stroked Lu Jingshen’s waist, feeling the slight tremor of his body. He couldn’t help but be infatuated, “Your waist is so sensitive, just a touch makes you shiver. Such a wonderful body, not everyone has it. What’s wrong with that? Besides, only I can enjoy it anyway.”

Lu Jingshen couldn’t stand his explicit and vulgar words. His throat rolled, “Stop talking…”

Feng Si laughed and his restless hand moved to knead his firm and rounded ass cheeks, then lightly patted, ” so soft and round. I’m afraid even women can’t compare.”

“Shut up,” Lu Jingshen said as he hugged Feng Si’s neck and kissed him to silence his never-ending words.

Feng Si obediently opened his lips, exchanging a passionate and hot kiss with him.

He lifted one of Lu Jingshen’s legs, entwining it around his waist, their bodies pressing against each other.

Lu Jingshen moaned, unable to control himself as he leaned his head back, his fingers digging deep into Feng Si’s shoulders.

The feeling he hadn’t experienced in a long time, both painful and pleasurable, made him feel alive and on the verge of collapse; it was all brought on by Feng Si.

There was no barrier between them now; he was completely possessed by this man.

The man he relied on, loved, and was deeply in love with.

Standing like this, they were soon covered in sweat all over, and when it became too intense to bear, Feng Si suddenly stopped, forcefully holding Lu Jingshen’s waist and pressing his body closer.

Sweat-soaked hair covered Lu Jingshen’s eyes, and he could only hear his own hoarse voice, “Don’t stop…”

Feng Si bit his hot earlobe, his sexy voice falling into his ears one word at a time, “Together.”

From the hallway to the living room, then to the bedroom, and the bathroom, Lu Jingshen experienced a feeling of trembling and convulsion that affected even his soul.

If tomorrow were the end of the world, he would willingly go together with the man who was embracing him at this moment.

At midnight, Feng Si leaned against the head of the bed, lit a cigarette, and enjoyed the act of inhaling and exhaling with half-closed eyes.

Lu Jingshen was too exhausted even to lift his fingers, lying on the bed quietly watching his profile. Feng Si’s eyes and eyebrows carried a lazy contentment. Amidst the swirling smoke, there was an indescribable charm.

“You said you were going to quit smoking,” Lu Jingshen said.

“I did. It’s just occasionally,” Feng Si glanced over at him, “Do you want to try?”

Lu Jingshen nodded slowly, and Feng Si handed his cigarette to his lips. Lu Jingshen stared at the damp tip of the cigarette and gently bit it.

The taste of smoke filled his lungs, mixed with the scent of the man beside him, and Lu Jingshen’s eyelashes trembled. The desire that had just subsided seemed to rise again.

His gaze fixed, he stared at Feng Si’s deep eyes that were looking back at him. He couldn’t say a word.

Feng Si was also looking at him, the man who had just been lying on the bed after their intense encounter, his entire body seemed soaked in raw desire. His eyes unconsciously wandered around, matched with the redness at the corners of his eyes due to the smoke, innocent and seductive.

Lu Jingshen was always like this, seemingly restrained and cold on the surface, but the passion and heat hidden beneath, only Feng Si knew, only he had tasted. That was why he couldn’t resist, couldn’t forget.

Lu Jingshen took the cigarette from his mouth and put it out in the ashtray on the bedside table. Feng Si turned over and pressed his strong chest against Lu Jingshen’s, and their fingers entwined as they exchanged a wet kiss with the taste of tobacco.

“Ah Shen…”

Their lips were pressed together, and Feng Si murmured his name.

Lu Jingshen felt a bit excited and mumbled a response, pulling him closer to continue kissing.

Their bodies rubbed and collided, and the bed beneath them shook intensely as their passion continued to burn.

The night was still young.

……………………..

The next morning, after finishing breakfast, they went out together to Feng Si’s dormitory at the university and helped him move.

Lu Jingshen hesitated when faced with the seven or eight suitcases. Feng Si was squatting on the side, packing his clothes, and casually said, “Don’t worry about it. I’ve called a moving company, and they will be here in half an hour to take these things away first.”

Those suitcases had never been opened; it was as if Feng Si knew from the beginning that he wouldn’t stay there for long.

“By the way, will you go with me to buy a car later?” Feng Si said.

“A car?” Lu Jingshen asked.

“Yeah,” Feng Si nodded. “I can’t take a taxi every day after moving to your place. Also your cars are all too expensive, even the cheapest one is over two million. It’s too flashy. I’ll just buy a cheap car for daily use.”

Since Feng Si said so, Lu Jingshen didn’t object. After hesitating for a moment, he asked, “Is your salary enough?”

The relationship between them now was such that Feng Si still fulfilled his previous contract and tried to accompany Lu Jingshen on business trips whenever he could. But Feng Si had already told him not to pay him anymore, so the only income he had was from the university, which was definitely far less than what he earned from piloting private planes.

“If it’s not enough? Will you sponsor me?” Feng Si joked with a raised eyebrow.

Lu Jingshen didn’t know how to respond. In fact, he thought it was possible, but a man like Feng Si definitely wouldn’t accept that. Getting another job was probably because he didn’t want their relationship to involve money.

Seeing Lu Jingshen’s conflicted expression, Feng Si laughed and then said seriously, “Alex, my current annual salary is over four hundred thousand, which is far less than before, and I can’t compete with your lavish spending. But compared to ordinary people, it’s still more than enough. It’s not as bad as you think, and I also have some savings. I’m planning to buy an apartment here in the future.”

Lu Jingshen instinctively asked, “You want to buy a house?”

Feng Si explained, “Don’t worry, I don’t intend to live separately from you.  What I mean is, in a couple of years, Tingting will graduate from her postgraduate studies and come here to develop her career. My mom will also move here, so I plan to buy an apartment for them to live in.”

Lu Jingshen nodded. “But your mom is from the south. Will she be able to adjust here?”

“She has been in London for thirty years. There’s nothing she can’t adjust to,” Feng Si said nonchalantly. “It can’t be helped. After all, her son married here.”

Lu Jingshen couldn’t stand his nonsense and finally said after a long pause, “Congratulations, your New Year’s wish was fulfilled in the first half of the year.”

Lu Jingshen joked about it on New Year’s Day morning, and he didn’t expect Lu Jingshen to remember it until now.

Feng Si burst into laughter. “Thank you for your cooperation, Alex.”

Twenty minutes later, the moving company arrived, and they moved the larger items first.

The rest of the things were loaded into Lu Jingshen’s car and transported in two trips.

When they were about to leave, they ran into one of Feng Si’s colleagues who also lived in the dorms there. When the colleague heard that Feng Si was moving off-campus, he was a bit surprised, but Feng Si didn’t explain much and chatted with the person for a few words before getting into the car.

Lu Jingshen started the car and drove out. After a while, he hesitated and asked Feng Si, “Will yesterday’s live stream affect you in any way?”

Feng Si smiled. “Are you worried about that now? Weren’t you quite talkative yesterday?”

Lu Jingshen was indeed worried. After all, Feng Si was working in this environment, and exposure of his sexual orientation would be more troublesome than his.

Feng Si had previously said that he really liked this job.

“Don’t worry. You didn’t mention any names, so others won’t know it’s me. Besides, they’re not the kind of people who are interested in gossip,” Feng Si said, “Don’t overthink it. Just let things flow naturally.”

Afterward, they went directly to a car dealership, chose a car model, and paid a deposit. The car would be ready for pickup in three days.

As it was close to noon, they looked for a place to eat at a nearby mall. When they parked in the underground parking lot, they unexpectedly ran into someone they knew.

It was Jiang Heng, the person who had publicly confessed his feelings to Lu Jingshen before and was rejected by him, leading to the end of their friendship.

As they got out of the car, the person called out Lu Jingshen’s name and approached them.

Lu Jingshen frowned upon seeing him. Jiang Heng greeted him and then turned his gaze to Feng Si, who got out of the car a step later, his expression complex.

“What a coincidence. I didn’t expect to meet you here. Are you here to eat? I’ve also made plans with Song Ming and the others. Do you want to join us?” Jiang Heng said.

He was referring to some other friends that Lu Jingshen also knew. Lu Jingshen directly declined, saying coldly, “No need. I already have plans with someone else.”

Jiang Heng blurted out, “I saw your livestream yesterday.”

Lu Jingshen’s face froze for a moment but didn’t respond.

Jiang Heng continued, “I was actually quite surprised. I always thought that after you rejected me and cut off ties with me, it was because you were repulsed and disgusted by such a relationship. I didn’t expect that you were okay with it, but just not with me. It makes me feel dejected. Can you tell me the reason?”

In fact, it wasn’t the case. Lu Jingshen only accepted Feng Si and wouldn’t accept anyone else.

Lu Jingshen wasn’t interested in standing there discussing his sexual orientation with someone, so Feng Si called out from the front of the car, “Alex, let’s go.”

Lu Jingshen told Jiang Heng, “I have to go. I’ll leave first,” and quickly walked up to catch up with Feng Si.

When they entered the elevator, Feng Si glanced back at Jiang Heng and pressed the door close button.

As the elevator ascended, Lu Jingshen took the initiative to explain, “Initially, I cut off ties with him because I was afraid of exposing my sexual orientation. Also, he didn’t inform me beforehand and had so many people cheering him on when he confessed to me, which made me feel embarrassed.”

Feng Si nodded, “I see. And now?”

Lu Jingshen thought for a moment and said, “He has been rude to you, never looking at you directly. I know him pretty well; he’s the type of person who looks down on others and thinks you’re not rich enough to be part of their so-called circle.”

Feng Si reminded him, “Alex, is it appropriate to say you know other men while I’m here?”

Feng Si was always like this, bringing up irrelevant topics at any time. Lu Jingshen shook his head slightly, “Is that all you want to focus on?”

Feng Si smiled, “I am playing with you. It’s good that you also look down on someone who looks down on your man.”

“Alright, there’s no need to bother with such a person,” Feng Si smiled but then said seriously, “But Alex, besides me, you can also try making other friends. Next time, I’ll go out with my friends. Would you like to come along? Don’t worry, it won’t be a chaotic place. I’ve deleted all those random people as I promised.”

He handed his phone to Lu Jingshen, “Or you can check for yourself?”

Lu Jingshen didn’t take the phone, “No need to check, I trust you.”

He didn’t want to appear too concerned about those matters, even though he did care.

People like Jiang Heng, and others like him didn’t realize that Lu Jingshen who was wealthier than the vast majority of people in material terms, had been lacking in his love life, and only Feng Si’s appearance was the only bright spot in it.

The line of poetry on the postcard sent from Norway was the most appropriate expression for his state of mind.

Feng Si was his last and only rose.

No one could despise the person he loved. He had bravely confessed in front of the camera to give Feng Si a sense of security. But he knew that he was the one who needed that security, the approval of Feng Si, and the proof that Feng Si was his.

From one extreme to another, such a crazy idea might be the beginning of another kind of mental illness, but he didn’t care.

With Feng Si in his world, it became sunny and evergreen. He would give his all to make Feng Si stay with him for a long time.

“Alex?”

Feng Si’s voice brought Lu Jingshen back to reality. The elevator door had opened, and Lu Jingshen smiled at him, “Let’s go, what do you want to eat?”

Feng Si raised an eyebrow in surprise, “You actually smiled?”

It was the first time he had seen Lu Jingshen genuinely smile, not the perfunctory smile he showed to business partners but a warm, happy smile that was only for him.

Lu Jingshen calmly replied, “Is it not allowed?”

Of course, it was allowed. If they weren’t in public, Feng Si would have tightly hugged him.

“Alex, you look so sexy right now,” Feng Si teased, his tone full of laughter, like he was really happy.

Lu Jingshen, still smiling, asked again, “What do you want to eat?”

“Western cuisine, there’s a place just ahead,” Feng Si casually pointed.

Originally, he hadn’t planned to choose that place, but now he just wanted to find a quiet, undisturbed private room to touch and hug the person beside him.

Even a simple touch would do.

Lu Jingshen nodded.

Looking at the reflection of himself in Feng Si’s smiling eyes, he slowly relaxed. He seemed to have learned another way to make Feng Si happy.

He would work harder to make Feng Si look at him and only look at him