-This ugly Bai Yunyu loves you, Mr. Long Shen.-

Long Shen was stunned when he read this sticky note. He didn't expect Bai Yunyu to have this sort of feelings for him. He always thought that Bai Yunyu was always admiring him from a fan who admired his idol so much but dared not approach him personally.

That was why Long Shen wanted to tease Yunyu a bit. But suppose Yunyu had been burying this feeling for so long. In that case, then…all his terrible mistreatment for Yunyu must've hurt his feeling a lot more than it should be.

Because Long Shen was always cruel and harsh to his employees, whether it was his assistant, manager, and even the staff that handled him. He didn't do it because he wanted to be cruel. It was just his habit whenever he was under stress to curse people around him.

And Bai Yunyu was his most prominent victim.

He had lost count on how many times he harassed Yunyu with his rude remark about his ugliness. He immediately recalled that time when he said he wanted to puke after a tiring day and greeted Bai Yunyu's face in the evening.

He also remembered when he said that Bai Yunyu should just die because he was not only ugly but also a slowpoke and had a weak body. And Long Shen still vividly remembered that time when he said such hurtful words;

It was when he just finished a long shooting at a hill. The road leading to the movie set was too narrow for a car to go in, so they had to walk to the top of the hill. It wasn't really far, honestly, but Long Shen remembered that Yunyu was actually sick at that time.

He begged for Long Shen so he could return home and rest, but Long Shen didn't allow him. Because he still needed an assistant during his shoot, as he was the main star. It took hours upon hours until the shoot was finished, and they trailed back to their car.

On their way back, Yunyu accidentally slipped and fell. He sprained his ankle. He wasn't too careful because he was too sick and dizzy. When he fell, everybody just stared at him, including Long Shen.

'Help me, please help…' Yunyu grimaced as he held his sprained ankle.

Long Shen even had the audacity to chuckled and said, 'You're weak, ugly, and stupid. And you still want someone to help you? You should've died instead.'

'Let's go. He's probably just pretending. No need to help him,' Long Shen said.

Nobody helped Yunyu as he was alone in the trail for almost an hour, and his fever worsened when a local passed the path and saw someone passed out with his face flushed. At first, they thought he was a ghost because of his face, but after they made sure that Yunyu was a human, the locals helped him to be treated for his sprained ankle and fever.

Long Shen remembered how terrible his treatment was for Bai Yunyu, and he somehow wanted to punch himself in the face right now.

Long Shen couldn't imagine how heartbroken Yunyu must be at that time. Nobody really liked talking to Yunyu in the movie set either. Because they were used to seeing beautiful peoples around, when they saw someone as ugly as disgusting looking as Yunyu, it made their stomach turned.

So when Long Shen left him, everyone also left Yunyu.

And it must've worsened for Yunyu when he saw Long Shen carrying Zhou Yulin with her 'sprained ankle'.

'It must've hurt Yunyu so bad…' Long Shen finally realized how stupid he was at that time and how much of an asshole he was.

And he also understood why Yunyu suddenly got the courage to defend himself when slandered. Because he had been bearing too much pain in his heart, and he snapped.

And the tormenter was him, Long Shen.

'Long Shen, you're such a heartless bastard,' Long Shen cursed himself in his heart. He turned his head slowly at Yunyu and was surprised when he saw Yunyu was crying again. But he didn't whimper this time. He stared at Long Shen with his angry and disappointed eyes. He bit his lips, trying hard not to sound pitiful in front of Long Shen.

Long Shen gulped and tried to reason with Yunyu, "Y—Yunyu, I… I don't know that you think this way of me. I… I'm sorry for my past behaviour. But I also want you to be my boyfri—"

"Leave," Yunyu snipped so suddenly.

"Huh?"

"Mr. Long Shen, you should leave," Yunyu repeated. "You've seen everything, right? I'm afraid you might stain my carpet with your puke. I know you're disgusted with me. So please leave."

"I'm not disgusted. Please listen to me—"

"Listen? Listening to your ridicule this time? You finally know that someone as ugly as me dares to fall in love with you for so long. I know you'll ridicule me again, right? Mr. Long Shen, you can ridicule me all you want, and I will listen to everything you said because I know it's true, but please, after that, please leave this room."

"No, don't listen to what I said before. I was such a dumbass! F—Forget everything I said. I really couldn't control myself when I'm tired, you know that, right?" Long Shen tried to appease Yunyu, but Yunyu didn't want to hear any of it.

"No need to sugarcoat it, I know I'm disgusting to look at, and this feeling to yours is disgusting as well. Please leave," Yunyu repeated, again and again, tears streaming down on his cheek as he couldn't control his emotion right now.

"Yunyu, I truly like—"

"LEAVE!" Yunyu shouted out loud. He was at the verge of mental breakdown, unable to accept the fact that Mr. Long Shen, someone who had insulted and bullied him for so long, found out about the feeling that he kept secretly since day 1.

Long Shen finally zipped his mouth. He gazed at the Yunyu. Yunyu was heartbroken before he even had the chance to confess to Long Shen.

All those meaningless words that Long Shen said just to vent his exhaustion actually did so much damage to Yunyu. It was a miracle that Yunyu could survive for so long with a broken heart. 

Long Shen felt lost. He didn't know what to say and what to do to make Yunyu realize how guilty he felt right now. It was so much that the guilt almost overwhelmed him.

Long Shen held the sticky note and pocketed it in his back pocket. He turned his back and walked to the door with his heart hurting. Before he left, Long Shen looked back and saw Yunyu still in the same position, staring at him hatefully with tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, Bai Yunyu, it's all my fault…" Long Shen said as he closed the door slowly. Long Shen stood in front of the door for a while. He leaned on the door and slumped on the ground.

'Long Shen, you are such an asshole …'

[Pupa: Ding! Long Shen's Fatemeter to Bai Yunyu increases to 75%.]