Soul for a Girlfriend?

What was I thinking?

"Saishi!!"

Her voice was echoing in my ear yet it felt like she was drifting away from me as her voice was slowly fading away. Everything was very surreal, as well the cold feeling of blood seeping out of my body.

Why was my body moving on it's own?

I should've left her behind when I had the chance. There was no reason for me to get involved in her affairs. I only ended up being miserable in the process and hurted myself as well.

What was Asmodeus even talking about?

And why did Seryoku become Asmodeus?

He was studying with me in the same class and talking with me everyday. Thinking back about it was weird, how I considered him a chill guy to be around and respected that he was a man of his words.

After this incident, my impression of Seryoku changed drastically.

There were a tonne of questions flowing wild through my mind. I wasn't aware of what was happening in my surroundings. It felt like my weightless body was floating in a void of nothingness.

Lilith and Asmodeus seemed to have a lot of past together and judging by her reaction, I could assume that whatever memories they shared weren't the best for Lilith. Though it appeared otherwise for Asmodeus.

He seemed to know a lot about this contract as well and Lilith said something about her being in this situation because of him. But I couldn't make sense of anything they were saying, but it appeared like I wasn't aware about a lot of things.

Though, most of them seemed to be about Lilith's past.

He seemed relatively stronger than Lilith. In fact, it appeared like he was toying with her and wasn't even serious about the fight that happened between them. Though I couldn't keep up with their super fast moves.

Though, when he fought with me, I could tell that he was holding back both the times. He could've easily killed me if he wanted to yet he left me to suffer with this damaged body.

What was I even thinking, trying to act all edgy like that?

Though my body wasn't under my control at all. I couldn't even assess the situation properly before throwing hands at an enemy which would've definitely one-shotted me. And that raspy voice in my head which I heard in those moments was definitely not mine, nor did it sound familiar. 

Whose voice was it?

That voice made me feel a certain urge to protect Lilith. I was well aware of the risk yet couldn't stop myself.

And where did it end? 

With me on the brink of death, counting my last breaths.

I never liked this contract to begin with. This wasn't a contract, rather it always felt like something unwanted that was hooked onto my shoulders without my consent with a knife sticking under my throat that'd cut me if I said something.

When I asked Lilith about it she said, "You think I care about your puny consent?"

Even though the contract means benefit to both the parties on either end, I was the one losing here.

Everything changed.

My life went downhill. I started lying more than I ever did. Hiding things and playing with people's emotion just to mask it off under the veil of saving them. I never cared for these sorts of things, nor did I want to.

And now I'm dying to save the person who brought this upon me in the first place.

Am I going to die?

But I don't wanna die without even accomplishing anything.

I don't wanna die.

I don't know what was happening, except getting warm sensation in stomach. It was almost like a gut wrenching feeling which made me feel like throwing up. My hands and feets were cold but my core was warming up slowly.

It was like covering your body with a blanket while your hands and leg stick out in the cold.

"Sais…" I could make out a faint voice what sounded like someone was calling out my name which was growing louder with each passing second, "Saishi!?"

It was Lilith's voice, full of desperation and fear. I slowly opened my eyes and noticed her silhouette over me. A sudden silence grew between us as I noticed her crimson eyes were peircing into mine.

I was alive?

I glanced my eyes around and noticed that she was sitting beside me as her silver messy hairs fell over her face. There was a strange expression on her face that I had never seen before. There were trails of tear on the egde of her eyes.

Trying to comprehend what was happening, I tried to get up but was caught off guard by Lilith's body colliding against mine followed by a desperate cry, "I'm so glad… I'm…"

"Devil-chan?" I called out to her in confusion but she didn't reply. I felt her fingers crushing deeper into my skin as it sounded like she was crying, "I'm so glad!"

I was quite confused about everything that was happening. Somehow I wasn't dead but the person I was starting to resent was crying between my arms. I didn't what to do or say except cradling her head as she kept crying.

"I'm so sorry…" She repeated herself between her breaths, "Please… I'm sorry."

"I never meant for this…" Her voice trailed off as I felt her letting go of her body on mine. Holding her shoulders, I pulled her away from me and noticed her face being red. She was breathing heavily.

"Oi? Are you good?" I asked, but she glanced into my eyes and shook her head softly while replying, "I'm… just fine."

"Definitely not." I said as she sounded weak and her body felt colder than usual.

"I'm just glad… for a moment, I thought I lost you." She said in her weak voice as she looked at me with half open eyes. Reached for my face, her hands held them gently as she added, "Please don't do something… like…that."

There was something wrong with her definitely.